"there is no favor without faithfulness"... x
I heard exactly what he said the other night... but it wasn't until this evening, that I realized what he meant.
We shared an amazing dinner and a bottle of wine, a few nights ago. After dinner, I went into the kitchen to get the Tiramisu, that I had made for dessert.
As I was returning, I noticed his shadow dancing on the wall, from the illumination of the three candles that were burning. I was MESMERIZED for a few seconds, and I thought to myself, "No matter how dark things may appear, he is always covered in the light."
I walked back over to the table and handed him his dessert, as he reached over to open the most expensive bottle of liquor, that he had. I became a little nervous, being that I'm not much of a drinker.
I didn't want him to waste it on my account, so I told him to save it for the the boys in the band. I figured they would enjoy it, much more than I would. ;)
"it's not the quality of drink, but the one who shares your glass, that matters"... he responded.
He proceeded to open the bottle and handed it to me. I took the bottle and poured the liquor into his glass. He then slid his glass across the table, over to me. I took a sip from his cup, it was strong but smooth. He smiled, as I handed his glass back to him and then he took a sip.
Simultaneously, we both started singing to the sound of The Rolling Stones, that was playing in the background...
"Oh baby why you wait so long,
Ohh baby why you wait so long,
Won't you come on, come home"
I did my little "Jagger" dance and then he stood up and out "Jaggered" me! HAHAHA! We were laughing so hard.
Yes, we all know that he can do "The DANCE" much better than I can, but it was still funny. hehe
For a moment in time, we were just "us"... like we used to.
"it's been too long, i miss you"... x
Tonight, as I was looking outside the window of the Motel, it began to rain. I started to think about what he had said the other night, as my eyes were fixated on the Neon sign in front of me.
You SEE... there is a QUALITY in the way he speaks. His voice is STRONG but SMOOTH, and there is usually a DOUBLE meaning behind his words.
Many people will say, that he speaks in parables, or that they don't understand the message he's trying to get across. I on the other hand, tend to dissect his every word. I want to unveil the hidden TREASURE, that is beneath them.
Suddenly, I felt this coldness in the air, as though it came in from outside and shot straight through me. It was like, there was a VACANT space inside of me! This is how he must feel, I thought?!
He is in the spotlight all of the time. His every move and every word is monitored, twisted, or used against him. How could he possibly trust anyone?
My mind started to wander...
Who is the "Cup-Bearer" to the King???
The cup-bearer was a highly valued position in the Palace and it was only given to a select few, throughout history. He was of great influence and was held at high esteem, due to his confidentiality and LOYALTY to the King. He was the closest person to the King and a TRUE friend.
One of the requirements for being a cup-bearer, was to pour the King's drink. Not only did he pour it, but he drank from his cup, before the King would ever take a sip. This was to guard against anyone who was trying to poison the King.
WOW! Can you imagine that??? He would put his life on the line EVERYDAY, for the King. In return, the King would TRUST him with his very own life, also.
"Greater love hath no man than this,
that a man lay down his life for his friends."
That's when it dawned on me...
He was telling me that the quality or the cost of the drink, didn't matter. The fact that he could be himself, be vulnerable, and be around someone that he trusted 100%... was WORTH more to him than anything!
A time, that he wasn't worried about what he said or how he said it. A moment, that he didn't feel alone or vacant. A KNOWING, that I would bear his cup, whatever the cost.
People often say, "Friends are the ones, you are willing to sit down and share a meal with." But I believe there's a difference between friends and "true" friends.
Jesus shared the last supper with His 12 Disciples. They were His closest friends. But, out of the 12 that were in his inner circle, there were only three that He confided in. One that betrayed Him and One out of the three, that He entrusted His ministry to. Interesting!
During the last supper, Jesus told His disciples to drink from "His Cup" in remembrance of Him. The cup represented His BLOOD, that He was about to shed for them and for all of us. Jesus became the ultimate sacrifice for you and I.
"His Cup" is the symbol of LIFE.
You SEE, trust and loyalty is not something that is cheap, it is VERY costly.
Love IS sacrifice.
So let me ask you...
Whose cup are you willing to bear?
"Well, I've been haunted in my sleep,
You've been starring in my dreams,
Lord, I miss you."
Lord, I miss you."