Monday, March 28, 2011

Bleeding through the Intermission

"love doesn't get cancelled"... x


"And when I passed by you and saw you struggling in your own blood, I said to you in your blood, 'Live!'  Yes I said to you in your blood, 'Live!'

I made you thrive like the plant in the field; and you grew, matured and became very beautiful.  Your breasts were formed, your hair grew, but you were naked and bare.

When I passed by you again and looked upon you, indeed your time was the time of LOVE; so I spread My wing over you and covered your nakedness.

Yes I swore an OATH to you and entered into a covenant with you, and you became Mine, says the Lord God.

Then I washed you in water, I thoroughly washed off your blood, and I anointed you with oil.

I clothed you in embroidered cloth and gave you sandals of badger skin; I clothed you with fine linen and covered you with silk.

I adorned you with ornaments, put bracelets on your wrists, and a chain on your neck.

And I put a jewel in your nose, earrings in your ears, and a beautiful crown on your head.

Thus you were adorned with gold and silver, and your clothing was of fine linen, silk, and embroidered cloth. You ate pastry of fine flour, honey, and oil.  

You were exceedingly beautiful, and succeeded to ROYALTY."  Ezekiel 16:6-13


corona la farfalla

 "stop thinking like a caterpillar, when you're a butterfly"... x


Our conversation...

My mind is in a fog, there's so much going on right now.  The roofer just called and said I need to get rid of everything, including all of my clothes. And that's not the worst of it, he said they found my doves... they were dead inside my wall.  I'm sickened with sadness. 

Farfalla, i'm sorry.  look sweetheart... don't cry, the important thing is that they got all the mold out of there and you're gonna be ok.  someday, you'll have your own 'butterfly farm' and you can have as many doves as you want. 

And a vacation home in Italy... haha.  Yeah, maybe someday?!

right now you need to start connecting all the dots and write this out.

There's way too much information... dates, times, journals, and dreams.  It's like the past, present, and future is one BIG puzzle.  I can't piece it together.

think about it Farfalla... the caterpillar turns into the butterfly, two shades of purple, tell me about the rainbow dream again...

I had that Dream over three years ago...

We were at a baseball game.  I was in the stands and I saw you in the field talking to a stranger.  As I started walking towards you, I saw the stranger hand you a big jar of honey.

Two people stopped me and they were asking me about you.  You were calling me on the phone, but I was right in the middle of giving them dates, for your show.  I looked at my phone and noticed that you had called me three times.

As I began walking towards you, a rainbow appeared in the sky.  It began to twirl and sparkle like colorful diamonds.  I fell to my knees and started to cry.

My mom walked up and she touched my shoulder.  She told me to look up to the sky and she asked if I had seen both of the rainbows?  I told her that I had only seen the One.  She said, "One comes before the other."

I stood up as you walked over to me, you wiped my tears with your thumb. You were staring at your thumb and you said, "your tears are a shade of violet"... but I think it was just my eyeshadow running.  You held my hand and we started walking through the field.

Why are you asking me about this, now???

who else was there?  When I got home there was a little boy there, he was watching TV.  He looked like he was about five years old.  It was 12:00pm and I asked him if he wanted a sandwich and some milk for lunch.  whose boy was it?  I don't know... It was the first time I had ever seen him, why?

think about it Farfalla... what's the boys name?  What?  say his name! What, why?  dammit, say it!  Ok, ok... his name was Seth.  Seth?  Yes, his name IS Seth.


Skittles 12.22.07


Guns N' Roses ~ Don't Cry II ~ Alternate Lyrics



If we could see tomorrow
What of your plans
No one can live in sorrow
Ask all your friends

Times that you took in stride
They're back in demand
I was the one who's washing
Blood off your hands

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

I know the things you wanted
They're not what you have
With all the people talkin'
It's drivin' you mad

If I was standin' by you
How would you feel
Knowing your love's decided
And all love is Real

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

I thought I could live in your world
As years all went by
With all the voices I've heard
Something has died

And when you're in need of someone
My heart won't deny you
So many seem so lonely
With no one left to cry to baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday


ALTERNATE: to interchange repeatedly and regularly with one another through time or place; rotate.

INTERMISSION: a period during which action temporarily ceases; an interval between periods of action or activity.

#04 Track Don't Cry Original ~ Use your Illusion I
#13 Track Don't Cry II Alternate ~ Use your Illusion II
=17 hehe


"can two walk together, unless they are agreed?"


Farfalla Dreams Interpretation: 

BASEBALL = True Worship and America's Family Sport
FIELD= World and Harvest
STRANGER = Angel
HONEY = Anointing and Enlightenment
WALKING = Progress and Led by the Holy Spirit

PHONE = Communication
STOPPED by Two People = Witnesses or Distraction
DATES = Appointed Time
SHOWS = Prophesying in the Gifts of the Spirit or Worship
CALLED 3x's = Message from God
THREE = Complete and Trinity

SKY = Heaven, Creation, and Cycle of Life
RAINBOW = Covenant, Oath, and Promise
DIAMOND = Unique, Shine, Forever
TWIRL = Miracle and Full Circle

KNEES = Submission and Reverence
MOTHER = Source of Love and Kindness
SHOULDER = Support and Strength
TEARS = Prayers, Happiness or Sorrow
VIOLET = Kingship and Royalty
EYE SHADOW RUNNING = Veil Removed

HAND = Strength and Power
THUMB = Imprint and Impression
LOOKING AT OWN THUMB = Vision of your own Impression
RIGHT = Power and Authority of God revealed through Man
HOLDING HANDS = Agreement

SANDWICH = Bread of Life and Work of God
MILK = Word of God, Truth, and Foundation
FIVE = Grace
TWELVE = Divine Order, Joined, or United
TV = Vision, Message, and Prophecy
SETH = Appointed Son





Wednesday, March 23, 2011

What just bit me? Part One

"you might find it, inside my boots"... x


Have you ever lost something that was of so much value to you that you searched and searched, until you found it?

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you would do anything to get it?

People will often quote the saying, "Be careful what you wish for."

Well in my case this is somewhat how I felt.  It was a few years ago that I had asked God to allow me to SEE deeper into the Spiritual Realm.  I wanted to know what was being concealed.

What I began to see was amazing but at the same time there are things that I saw, that were quite frightening.

My dilemma was I really didn't have a clue what I was supposed to do with all that I was seeing?!

Anyway, this past year and a half everything in my life seemed to be going wrong.  Those that were closest to me, that I had supported and helped for years, were all gone.  All that I knew... my business, my money and my friends, all disappeared.

I thought to myself, "I have been here before... I have lost everything in the past and God restored all of it."  I can do this again, I can get through this.

It's interesting... when you don't have anything then you really don't have anything to lose, right?  The STING over the loss of the materialistic stuff, didn't seem to hurt me as much as I thought it would.  I almost felt as if a weight was lifted off of me.  But, it was the pain over the loss of those that claimed to be my friends and love me, that destroyed me.

It was then that I realized... It's not the bite of the snake, but it's the poison from the venom that will eventually kill you.

Soon after, my health began to fail me.  I have always been healthy and rarely ever caught a cold.  The Doctors couldn't figure out why I was sick.  I started to think that maybe all of the years I used to smoke, had finally caught up with me.  I prayed for my health, for my finance and for my friends.  But I became so weak that I could hardly function.

I had never been in this place before.

What was happening to me???




"what the f**k happened?  is she alright?  i've been trying to call her"... x

I could hear his voice but I couldn't open my eyes or respond. "Lisa, sweetheart are you ok?  Farfalla, wake up, wake up... can you hear me?  get her some water!"

"what is this sh*t?"... As I felt him rip the anklet off of my leg.  "sweet butterfly, Tahnee, Tahnee... i'm right here, wake up my girl...  JESUS, come on Tahnee WAKE UP!"  He said in his stern voice.

Slowly I started to open my eyes and all I could see was a blurred vision of his boots in front of me.  He bent down, kissed me on the forehead and said, "you need to get out of here."

A few weeks after I was in the Motel, I started to feel a little better.  That is when I began to think about that night.  I started to wonder why I had only responded when he had called me 'Tahnee.'  No one had called me that in years.  I asked God to give me wisdom and revelation...


"don't give up hope in what you see"... x


HELLS BELLS, I finally figured it out... "Nobody's puttin' up a fight." ~AC/DC
*Hells Bells Lyrics

WOW!  I can't believe it took me almost THREE years to figure this out.

There is no VICTORY without a FIGHT!

I can't conquer what I won't confront!

I need to face it, in order to defeat it!

FEAR was the one thing that had me frozen in my tracks.

I had to OVERCOME the fear and start FIGHTING back.  I'm not talking about revenge, I'm talking about fighting back, with the tools I was given.

I had to fight with everything I knew, in order to survive.  Because all I had, is what I BELIEVED in.

I had to put my FAITH into action.

Either this is REAL and I believe it... or I lay here on the ground and BLEED.

You SEE... I figured out that not only am I MARKED by Heaven, but I am also MARKED by Hell.

I am blowing HOLY SMOKE!  ;)

"The closer you get to the meaning, the sooner you'll know that you're dreaming." ~Black Sabbath *Heaven and Hell Lyrics

So, what does the Big Bad Snake want with me anyway?

What exactly are Lucifer and I fighting over?

I will share that, in Part Two.


P.S.  Slithering... Rattling... Yeah, yeah... I HEAR you but not only do I hear you... Now I can SEE you too! Rattlesnake Sound Bite





A Dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight,
and his Punishment is that he Sees the dawn
before the rest of the world.”  ~Oscar Wilde



Stryper ~ Heaven and Hell (Black Sabbath Cover)


Farfalla Dreams Interpretation:
NAME = Identity and Reputation
LEG = Strength and Support
ANKLES = Faith (Weak Ankles)
FEET = Your Heart
BOOTS = Protection for your Walk and Heart
WATER = The Holy Spirit and Word of God
HEAD = God's Authority
FOREHEAD = Thoughts and Mind
KISS = Agreement and Covenant




Thursday, March 17, 2011

Jukebox Passion

"what you possess, there is a lack thereof"... x


His voice shot sound waves through my body, as x spoke these words to me. I can't explain it, but it was like there was a reversal of sound.  Almost as if the phone was inside of me and his voice was coming out.  I think texting and email has destroyed the sensation that is stimulated in all of us, from hearing such vibrations.

As we hung up the phone, I thought to myself... What could I possibly possess that the world is lacking?

I went outside to watch the sunset and the sky looked red, it was beautiful. I think we are so used to seeing a blue sky, that when we actually see another color, it CAPTIVATES us.  I then began to ask God, what He thought the world is lacking?

That night as I slept, I had a dream...

I saw an old run down bar with a Jukebox playing.  The people in the bar were just sitting there motionless as the song 'Passion' (by Rod Stewart), was playing over and over.

When I awoke, I didn't understand the dream.  I LOVE Rod Stewart and I have always felt his PASSION through his music, but I had completely forgotten about this song.

Whenever there is a "THEME SONG" in my dream, I will always look up the lyrics, to find the hidden message, within the song.

As I started reading the lyrics, I felt electricity run through my body.  It was like someone had just deposited something inside of me, or plugged me in.

I was STUNNED...




Somebody somewhere
In the heat of the night
Looking pretty dangerous
Running out of patience

Tonight in the city
You won't find any pity
Hearts are being twisted
Another lover cheated, cheated

In the bars and the cafes... Passion
In the streets and the alleys... Passion
A lot of PRETENDING... Passion
Everybody's SEARCHING... Passion

Once in love you're never out of danger
One hot night spent with a stranger
All you wanted was somebody to hold onto

New York, Moscow... Passion
Hong Kong, Tokyo... Passion
Paris and Bangkok... Passion
A lot of people ain't got... Passion

Here it in the radio... Passion
Read it in the paper... Passion
Hear it in the churches... Passion
See it in the school yards... Passion

Once in love you're never out of danger
One hot night spend with a stranger
All you wanted was somebody to hold onto

Alone in your bed at night... Passion
It's a half past midnight... Passion
As you turn out your sidelight... Passion
Ooh something ain't right... Passion

There's NO Passion
There's NO Passion
There's NO Passion

I need Passion
You need Passion
We NEED Passion
Can't live without Passion
Won't live without Passion
Can't live without Passion

Even the President needs, Passion
Everybody I know needs some, Passion
Some people die and kill for, Passion
Nobody ADMITS they need, Passion
Some people are SCARED, Passion

Never, never, never get enough of your Passion... Yeah Passion
Must have more, more, more Passion... Yeah Passion
I'll do anything, anything for Passion... Yeah Passion

You want it that way, sound it out LOUD... Passion
Don't mess around, just CALL out Passion
You know, I know, we need Passion
Never, never, never leave without Passion
Never get enough, never get enough of you Passion

Can't live without Passion
Think about it... Passion
THINK about it... PASSION
PLEASE THINK about... PASSION


"you're like a tuner for the world"... x


Suddenly it all began to make sense...

The world is out of tune and everyone is SEARCHING for the signal.  It's like we've lost the frequency and we can't hear it.

Think about a jukebox for a minute... You put a coin in it and you pick your own tune.  Whatever song you choose to play, changes the entire ATMOSPHERE of the room.

Like a jukebox, we too have our own personal VIBRATION that we carry inside of us.  Our own unique sound that others feel or sense when they're around us, or when we walk into a room.

I started to think about x's vibration...

His VOICE and his presence, IS like a fine tuned instrument.  The atmosphere changes, as soon as he enters a room or walks on stage.  All the attention is turned towards him and what he chooses to play on his jukebox.  He has control over what sound, he wants to release to the crowd.

The hearts in the crowd are heated by his PASSION and his vibration penetrates their souls.  He captivates them and in return, they produce a surge of energy that vibrates back to him.  This causes the FIRE inside of him, to ignite.  This fire is needed, in order for him to continue to play and to keep creating music. 

Today people seem to be cold and have no emotion at all.  Just like the run down bar in my dream, people feel run down and tired.  Whatever we are depositing in us, is not feeding our SOUL and what is coming out of us, is a reflection of that.  It is REDUNDANT and therefore people are motionless.

Without PASSION moving in us, we end up losing compassion for others and our passion to create.

Our hearts have become twisted.  It's like we are saying, "We know the sky is blue, so why should we bother looking at it?"  We are passionless, because we have removed the HEAT from our jukebox.


"Everybody I know needs some Passion" ~Rod Stewart


You SEE, what x is ultimately saying is that, we have lost PASSION...

In our relationships, in our homes, in our schools, in our music, and even in some of our churches.  Everything is out of tune, so we have basically tuned out.  Our jukeboxes have been playing the same song over and over, and we are bored.

We are sitting around, waiting for someone to DEPOSIT something inside of us.  Something that will light us up and put that SPARK back into our eyes and that FIRE in our soul.

Jesus IS the Heat of Passion that is missing.  We don't need anymore carbon copies, we need the ORIGINAL.

A Creator LOVES to create, whether it be NEW music, art, or technology. Don't allow dread to set in, and think that you've already seen it all and you've heard it all.  We cannot cross lines or crisscross without thee CROSS. 

Something IS about to be deposited into the ATMOSPHERE, that will change the SOUND of the world!


..."of passions that won't die in my heart"  ~Guns N' Roses


What also fascinates me about this conversation, that sparked so much PASSION between x and I (hehe) is that, it was March 3rd.  Numbers like Names, carry a lot of SYMBOLIC meaning...

3 = The Trinity and Complete (Father, Son, Holy Spirit)
33 = His Promise and the age Jesus was Crucified
333 = Jesus' VIBRATION and His Resurrection

WOW!!!  His MOVEMENT created vibrations and sound.

I wonder if we all have our own frequency, that is linked to a Number?  If so, I'm sure x's vibration is 717.  ;)

Imagine what our MOVEMENT would create, if we allowed PASSION to move within us?!  

Maybe we need to start calling Passion?  Invite Him back into our homes, schools, music, and into our lives.

"We need Passion, Can't live without Passion."

His phone number is... Jeremiah 33:3

Will you call Him?

The Passion IS Christ

תשוקה עלה

"It crosses genres, it crosses religious lines, you know.
It's music that people can relate to." ~AxL Rose 


Foreigner ~ Jukebox Hero


The vibration of the Triangle's SOUND,
can always be heard clearly ABOVE the orchestra or band.



Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Compass Rose

Photobucket
"let me feel every part of your light"... x


His Secret Place is Breathtaking
 Buckets of Petals for Miles
Waiting to Release its Fragrance
Upon our Shores

The Vessel is Seeping
As his Fingers Anoint the Keys
A Prophetic Voice is Perfumed Aroma
Carrying its Scent Across the Seas

My Sweet Hiding Place
Intimacy Like None Other
I Want to Stay Here Forever
In the Water of the Rose

You have Ravished my Wings
The Butterfly Flutters
Taste the Sweetness of the Nectar
Explore the Place the Dove is Free

Step into the Water
Hear the Handbells Play
A Sacred Composition
Changes the Waters Color

My Sweet Hiding Place
Intimacy Like None Other
I Want to Stay Here Forever
In the Water of the Rose

Allow the World to Inhale its Essence
Baptize them in the Oil of the Rose
Purify and Replenish our Souls
Blossom and Unite Us

As High as Heaven is Above the Earth
as far as East is to the West
afresh, anew, divine
Feathers in the Wind

It's, My Sweet Hiding Place
Intimacy Like None Other
I Want to Stay Here Forever
In the Water of the Rose


from the rib which God had taken from the man


beneath the Five petals are Five sepals... Consecrated


your tongue turns the rudder of the ship


"Thy name is as ointment poured forth"


November REIGN
(photo by Jarmo)



Guns N' Roses ~ Dust in the Wind

"Take hold my hand,
hold it tighter, ever tighter,
you must believe,
that I love you still"