Monday, October 31, 2011


"But what's puzzling you is the nature of my game"... The Rolling Stones

I had a date with the devil
Exciting, I must admit
He is quite charming
I was fooled by his flirtatious ways

Temptation so intense
Gratification for a season
Admiration he will give
For a time and a reason

This date lasted for years
Enticed by his eyes
Hypnotized in the garden
As I spiraled into a horrific pit

He twisted my thoughts
Confused my mind
Tied me up
Captured my heart

Quite crafty, I'd say
Smooth is his tongue
Sweet like honey
Dripping with bitterness and lies

Sorrow upon sorrow
A cloud I couldn't escape
His shadow surrounded me
As I became enslaved

Planting evil seeds
Crippling my walk
If I continued to entertain him
He would seal my fate

Eve made the same mistake
Conversing with the FLYing serpent
In what he wants you to believe

Sentenced to life
I paid the price for love
Found the KEY
And planned my escape

"i'll come get you when you're ready, cross my heart"... x

I shut him down
Closed him out
Reversed the curse
I finally figured him out

You want to desolate my future
Sly motive, so you think?
Go ahead, spit in my face
It's really Jesus, you SEE

My voice shall overpower you
As I speak truth and life, in His name
No more guilt, no more shame
Double honor and majesty, I shall gain

Face the MUSIC
Your EMPTY words can't hold me
I'm no longer confined to a cage
Through your jealousy and rage

You're FASCINATED with butterflies
Respect and glory you crave
I've got your number, I know your game
I didn't deserve you and you NEVER deserved me

You're a counterfeit
Clever maybe but not the KING!
You're just a mask disguised as a lover
On the face of a Pharaoh

Listen... can you hear the SOUND?
Oh, how you'd love to stop it
Now you're the one who's petrified
Does it STING to lose control?

Excuse me, Lucifer
I didn't hear you
Did you feel the atmosphere shift?
Get out of my way...

The song is DESTINY
Don't forget to SAVE the date
Seven / Seventeen
Do you know my NAME?

"there's no doubt in my mind,
whatever you have to do,
just take care of it, before I return"... x

The Rolling Stones ~ Sympathy for the devil

"O Lucifer, son of the morning!

How you are cut down to the ground."

Sunday, October 16, 2011


Forgive... Photo by Nikki Sixx

One thing, that I love about Nikki's photography, is his ability to capture the mind, body, and soul, in one photograph.  Many people have asked me, what my favorite photo is from his latest book, 'This is Gonna Hurt.'  The photo that I posted above, is the one that resonated in my heart the most.

It touched me so deeply, not only on a personal level but on a spiritual level, as well.  It was as if, he had reached deep within my soul, pulled on my heart strings, and released the sound that's inside of me.  This photo spoke to my heart.  It not only reminded me of myself, but it also reminded me of what Jesus suffered and sacrificed on the cross, for us.

I love how Nikki will push us to the edge, through his photography and cause a reaction to what we SEE, through his "distorted" lens.  It may make some people uncomfortable, it may seem twisted, scary, and even beautiful... all at the same.  Whether those faces that he photographs are homeless, drug addicts, hookers, children playing, or lovers at a cafe, that he captured somewhere along the way.

Nikki's photography will cause you to FEEL more, than what you see.  I often times imagine what their lives must be like and several emotions run through my veins, as I look at his photographs.

None of us will walk through this life unscathed.  From childhood to adulthood, we will all suffer scars.  Some that we are born with, some that others have caused and some that we caused ourselves.  We can nurse our scars over and over.  We can continually rip them open and never allow them to heal, or we can choose to forgive, love others and love ourselves.

Forgiveness is easier said than done, I know.  When people we love and trust, maliciously use us or hurt us, we can carry the scars around forever.  We can feel sorry for ourselves, feel like we were cheated in life, be filled with sadness, regret, shame, hate, and/or anger.  But in the end we are only robbing ourselves of true happiness and love, if we choose not to forgive.

Scars may be what we carry, but it's NOT who we are!  We all have the power to choose to love others, through our hurt and pain.  

You SEE, it's not what happens to us in life, but what happens through us... that makes the difference!

"Angel and Cross" Brisbane, Australia ~ Photo by Nikki Sixx

My whole life, not only have I carried around my own scars that life has dealt me, but I have also carried the scars of others, through what I SEE.  I have carried this burden or scars, if you will... through the GIFT of dreams.

It hasn't been easy and often times I would find myself looking in the mirror and contemplating, if it is even worth it?  Struggling with my own doubts and fears, it's something that has caused me great pain and heartache, throughout my life.

At times, I feel like it's a beautiful gift and at other times it feels more like a curse.  From being called crazy, to being made fun of, and people's disbelief in God and the power of dreams... it has been a very hurtful experience.

My mind is often restless, as my heart ponders the dreams and sometimes it is quite overwhelming, to SEE all that I see.

Years ago I asked God, "What am I supposed to do, with what I'm seeing?" His answer to me was... "PRAY and I will show you things to come."

I had a choice to make...

I could either trust Him and believe, or I could close the door to my dreams and forget about them, forever.  I chose to lay down my PRIDE, pray, and try to help those in need.  Once I yielded my heart towards Heaven, my dreams became stronger.

I began to appreciate my gift and I realized the blessings, of being able to have a "Sneak Peek" into what The Kingdom of Heaven is up to! ;)

Throughout 2009 and 2010, many of the dreams that I was having were about Nikki, James, and DJ, and the music that they were creating.  It was so intense that I often joked around and said, "Sixx:A.M. is the Topic of Conversation in Heaven or Trending in the Heavenlies."  haha

On November 20th, 2009... I was awoken in the middle of the night by a dream. What transpired in my dream was so POWERFUL and breathtaking!  I couldn't shake it and I couldn't stop it from replaying, over and over in my mind.

I won't post the dream, in order to protect their privacy... but I was in Awe at what I SAW and HEARD.

This is part of what I wrote, about the dream...

"For His glory shines upon your face as a resemblance of Him.  As a mirrored image of the King.  His blood is upon your lips and upon your fingertips.  For He has given you the KEY, to unlock the SOUND that will HEAL the SCARS on the backs of mankind.

The ink is silver and the sound is inexpressible!  It's somewhere between the KEY of teardrops and raindrops.  It IS quite chilling!!!  It shall attract and entice this generation and bring a SMILE upon the face of the world." *Exalted................

The CD 'This is Gonna Hurt' by Sixx:A.M. was released on May 3, 2011.  I'm not exactly sure how they created this sound???  But I believe, that they YIELDED their hearts towards Heaven and allowed the sound to be downloaded into their souls.

I am so thankful, that they chose to lay down their own scars, for the world to SEE.  For bringing about awareness, and for touching others, through the HEALING power of their music, books, and photography.  But most of all... for the SACRIFICES they've made and for the LOVE they possess!

When I first heard 'SKIN' in REAL time (hehe), I had goose bumps all over and I couldn't control the tears that were flowing down my face.

I don't know about you, but it sure sounds like the perfect KEY, between teardrops and raindrops, to me?!  ;)

It IS the most BEAUTIFUL sound of healing SCARS... on the world's HEART and mine!

What do you hear?

Sixx:A.M. ~ Skin ~ Written by James Michael and Blair Daly


Nikki, James, and DJ... I'm so proud of ALL of you!  I LOVE YOU!

Friday, October 7, 2011

Guard your Heart

The knife can't penetrate the HEAR*T when the CROSS is covering it.

Don't listen to the critics
For they will soon be his converts

Don't allow the evilness
Penetrate thine heart

Don't digest the jealousy and hate
For the world is filled with sorrow and pain

Don't believe what they say about him
For out of his shadow, you shall emerge

You are beautiful
A dreamer, just like him

They will soon see
All that you've known

They will soon feel
All that you've been shown

For you are the seed
The spirit of Harod tried to destroy

Barrenness no more
A prodigy is born

Grasp ahold of your inheritance
Royalty is in your DNA

Allow the Spirit to rise up within you
For your time shall surely come

It doesn't matter what it looks like
It only matters what the King of kings says

The table is being set
For a prophetic generation

The seat is being prepared
High upon the throne

He will raise him up
As the world stands in Awe

He will clothe him
In splendor and glory

Follow his lead
Honor him and believe

For you are the song...

He will release
Upon the wind

It shall be carried
Upon angel's wings

Unconditional love
He found in thee

A sound that will turn their hearts
And return the prodigals home

Therefore, continue in peace and love
And all that he has instilled in thee

Do not allow them to steal your identity
For you are the son of a King

Above all else.

"For out of it spring the issues of life." ~King Solomon

Elvis Presley ~ If I can Dream

"but as long as a man
has the strength to dream
he can redeem his soul and fly"

*feathers forevermore 12.22