Forgive... Photo by Nikki Sixx
One thing that I love about Nikki's photography is his ability to capture the mind, body, and soul... in one photograph. Many people have asked me what my favorite photo is from his latest book, "This is Gonna Hurt." The one that I posted above, is the one that resonated in my heart the most.
It touched me so deeply, not only on a personal level but on a spiritual level, as well. Almost as if he reached deep within my soul, pulled on my heart strings, and released the sound that's inside of me. This photo spoke to my heart! It not only reminded me of myself, but it also reminded me of what Jesus suffered and sacrificed on the cross for us.
I love how Nikki will push us to the edge, through his photography and cause a reaction to what we SEE, through his "distorted" lens. It may make some people uncomfortable, it may seem twisted, scary, and even beautiful... all at the same.
Whether those that he photographs are homeless, drug addicts, hookers, children playing, or lovers at a cafe, that he captured somewhere along the way. Nikki's photo's will cause you to FEEL more, than what you see. I often times imagine what their lives must be like and several emotions run through my veins, as I look at his photo's.
None of us will walk through this life unscathed. From childhood to adulthood, we will all suffer scars. Some that we are born with, some that others have caused and some that we caused ourselves. We can nurse our scars over and over. We can continually rip them open and never allow them to heal, or we can choose to forgive, love others and love ourselves.
Forgiveness is easier said than done, I know. When people we love and trust, maliciously use us or hurt us, we can carry the scars around forever. We can feel sorry for ourselves, feel like we were cheated in life, be filled with sadness, regret, shame, hate, and/or anger. But in the end we are only robbing ourselves of true happiness and love, if we choose not to forgive.
Scars may be what we carry, but it's NOT who we are! We all have the power to choose to love others, through our hurt and pain.
You SEE, it's not what happens to us in life, but what happens through us... that makes the difference!
"Angel and Cross" Brisbane, Australia ~ Photo by Nikki Sixx
My whole life, not only have I carried around my own scars that life has dealt me, but I have also carried the scars of others, through what I SEE. I have carried this burden or scars, if you will... through the GIFT of dreams.
It hasn't been easy and often times I would find myself looking in the mirror and contemplating, if it is even worth it? Struggling with my own doubts and fears, it's something that has caused me great pain and heartache, throughout my life.
At times, I feel like it's a beautiful gift and at other times it feels more like a curse. From being called crazy, to being made fun of, and people's disbelief in God and the power of dreams... it has been a very hurtful experience.
My mind is often restless, as my heart ponders the dreams and sometimes it is quite overwhelming, to SEE all that I see.
Years ago I asked God, "What am I supposed to do, with what I'm seeing?" His answer to me was... "PRAY and I will show you things to come."
I had a choice to make...
I could either trust Him and believe, or I could close the door to my dreams and forget about them. I chose to lay down my PRIDE, pray, and try to help those in need. Once I yielded my heart towards Heaven, my dreams became stronger.
I began to appreciate my gift and I realized the blessings, of being able to have a "Sneak Peek" into what The Kingdom of Heaven is up to! ;)
Throughout 2009 and 2010, many of the dreams that I was having were about Nikki, James, and Dj, and the music that they were creating. It was so intense that I often joked around and said, "Sixx:A.M. is the Topic of Conversation in Heaven or Trending in the Heavenlies." haha
On November 20th, 2009... I was awoken in the middle of the night by a dream. What transpired in my dream was so POWERFUL and breathtaking! I couldn't shake it and I couldn't stop it from replaying, over and over in my mind.
I won't post the dream, in order to protect their privacy... but I was in Awe at what I SAW and HEARD.
This is part of what I wrote, about the dream...
"For His glory shines upon your face as a resemblance of Him. As a mirrored image of the King. His blood is upon your lips and upon your fingertips. For He has given you the KEY to unlock the SOUND that will HEAL the SCARS on the backs of mankind. The ink is silver and the sound is inexpressible! It's somewhere between the KEY of teardrops and raindrops. It's quite chilling!!! It shall attract and entice this generation and bring a SMILE upon the face of the world." *Exalted................
The CD "This is Gonna Hurt" by Sixx:A.M. was released on May 3, 2011. I'm not exactly sure how they created this sound??? But, I believe that they YIELDED their hearts towards Heaven and allowed the sound to be downloaded into their souls.
I am so thankful, that they chose to lay down their own scars, for the world to SEE. For bringing about awareness, and for touching others through the HEALING power of their music, books, and photography. But most of all... for the SACRIFICES they've made and for the LOVE they possess!
When I first heard "SKIN" in REAL time, (hehe) I had goose bumps all over and I couldn't control the tears that were flowing down my face.
I don't know about you, but it sure sounds like the perfect KEY, between teardrops and raindrops, to me! ;)
It IS the most BEAUTIFUL sound of healing SCARS... on the world's HEART!
What do you hear?
Sixx:A.M. ~ Skin ~ Written by James Michael and Blair Daly
♕SMILE ♕SKIN ♕SURE FEELS RIGHT
Nikki, James, and DJ... I'm so proud of ALL of you! I LOVE YOU!