Farfalla Dreams: 2026

"the moon is in on it"...x

It was like time froze for a moment, and I was taken back to that place in time. My mind began to wander back to that day right before dusk. I recall sitting on the park bench writing him a note, when out of nowhere he and his friend rode up on their motorcycles. I was embarrassed so I covered my face. He shouted, "come on, let's go." I ran and jumped on the back of his bike as I handed him the note. He stuck it in the pocket of his leather jacket as we took off. I was hopelessly devoted. I felt so much freedom and so much happiness as the wind was blowing through my hair. I remember the lights - the lights of the cars - the streetlights - the lights on the buildings - and the smell of his leather jacket as I held him close. We rode down to the beach that night. The aroma of the ocean and the sound of the waves crashing along the shore were music to my ears. We talked about our dreams and danced on the sand. Our future seemed so far in the distance. I recall us lying on the sand and gazing up at the moon and the stars. We were young, we were playful, and we were free.

"What is desired in a man is kindness." -King David

I was startled and awakened by my dogs barking and a loud knock on my front door. I grabbed my robe and went to answer it.

I opened the door and said, what time is it?

sorry, i needed to see you. i brought some hamburgers, i figured you needed to eat.

Thank you, you are always so kind to me.

He jumped up on the kitchen counter, pulled out a hamburger from the bag, and handed it to me. I grabbed a few French fries, took a sip of coke and continued...

So crazy, I was just having a dream, and it was like someone hit the replay button and replayed that night when we were young and we took a ride on your motorcycle down to the beach. Do you remember? You were surprised that I was wearing red, and you sang "Lady in Red" in my ear, while we danced on the sand?

“you are my forevermore”…x

you never wear red.

Haha. I still don't.

i knew that night… do you remember what i said when i read your note?

How could I ever forget?

did you think i was joking?

I didn't know what to say? I was completely speechless as he grabbed my hands and continued...

forty f**king years, Lisa. forty f**king years...what the hell happened? how long are we going to fake this shit and stay silent? i did the self-assessment. you need to do the same.

I was crying and shaking my head in agreement as I spoke softly…

I know you're right. I will do the self-assessment and I will say whatever you want me to say.

He smiled, smacked me on the butt, and said, "get dressed...let's go."

Where are we going to go this late?

to look at the moon and stars... and talk to God.