Sunday, October 16, 2011


Forgive... Photo by Nikki Sixx

One thing, that I love about Nikki's photography, is his ability to capture the mind, body, and soul, in one photograph.  Many people have asked me, what my favorite photo is from his latest book, 'This is Gonna Hurt.'  The photo that I posted above, is the one that resonated in my heart the most.

It touched me so deeply, not only on a personal level but on a spiritual level, as well.  It was as if, he had reached deep within my soul, pulled on my heart strings, and released the sound that's inside of me.  This photo spoke to my heart.  It not only reminded me of myself, but it also reminded me of what Jesus suffered and sacrificed on the cross, for us.

I love how Nikki will push us to the edge, through his photography and cause a reaction to what we SEE, through his "distorted" lens.  It may make some people uncomfortable, it may seem twisted, scary, and even beautiful... all at the same.  Whether those faces that he photographs are homeless, drug addicts, hookers, children playing, or lovers at a cafe, that he captured somewhere along the way.

Nikki's photography will cause you to FEEL more, than what you see.  I often times imagine what their lives must be like and several emotions run through my veins, as I look at his photographs.

None of us will walk through this life unscathed.  From childhood to adulthood, we will all suffer scars.  Some that we are born with, some that others have caused and some that we caused ourselves.  We can nurse our scars over and over.  We can continually rip them open and never allow them to heal, or we can choose to forgive, love others and love ourselves.

Forgiveness is easier said than done, I know.  When people we love and trust, maliciously use us or hurt us, we can carry the scars around forever.  We can feel sorry for ourselves, feel like we were cheated in life, be filled with sadness, regret, shame, hate, and/or anger.  But in the end we are only robbing ourselves of true happiness and love, if we choose not to forgive.

Scars may be what we carry, but it's NOT who we are!  We all have the power to choose to love others, through our hurt and pain.  

You SEE, it's not what happens to us in life, but what happens through us... that makes the difference!

"Angel and Cross" Brisbane, Australia ~ Photo by Nikki Sixx

My whole life, not only have I carried around my own scars that life has dealt me, but I have also carried the scars of others, through what I SEE.  I have carried this burden or scars, if you will... through the GIFT of dreams.

It hasn't been easy and often times I would find myself looking in the mirror and contemplating, if it is even worth it?  Struggling with my own doubts and fears, it's something that has caused me great pain and heartache, throughout my life.

At times, I feel like it's a beautiful gift and at other times it feels more like a curse.  From being called crazy, to being made fun of, and people's disbelief in God and the power of dreams... it has been a very hurtful experience.

My mind is often restless, as my heart ponders the dreams and sometimes it is quite overwhelming, to SEE all that I see.

Years ago I asked God, "What am I supposed to do, with what I'm seeing?" His answer to me was... "PRAY and I will show you things to come."

I had a choice to make...

I could either trust Him and believe, or I could close the door to my dreams and forget about them, forever.  I chose to lay down my PRIDE, pray, and try to help those in need.  Once I yielded my heart towards Heaven, my dreams became stronger.

I began to appreciate my gift and I realized the blessings, of being able to have a "Sneak Peek" into what The Kingdom of Heaven is up to! ;)

Throughout 2009 and 2010, many of the dreams that I was having were about Nikki, James, and DJ, and the music that they were creating.  It was so intense that I often joked around and said, "Sixx:A.M. is the Topic of Conversation in Heaven or Trending in the Heavenlies."  haha

On November 20th, 2009... I was awoken in the middle of the night by a dream. What transpired in my dream was so POWERFUL and breathtaking!  I couldn't shake it and I couldn't stop it from replaying, over and over in my mind.

I won't post the dream, in order to protect their privacy... but I was in Awe at what I SAW and HEARD.

This is part of what I wrote, about the dream...

"For His glory shines upon your face as a resemblance of Him.  As a mirrored image of the King.  His blood is upon your lips and upon your fingertips.  For He has given you the KEY, to unlock the SOUND that will HEAL the SCARS on the backs of mankind.

The ink is silver and the sound is inexpressible!  It's somewhere between the KEY of teardrops and raindrops.  It IS quite chilling!!!  It shall attract and entice this generation and bring a SMILE upon the face of the world." *Exalted................

The CD 'This is Gonna Hurt' by Sixx:A.M. was released on May 3, 2011.  I'm not exactly sure how they created this sound???  But I believe, that they YIELDED their hearts towards Heaven and allowed the sound to be downloaded into their souls.

I am so thankful, that they chose to lay down their own scars, for the world to SEE.  For bringing about awareness, and for touching others, through the HEALING power of their music, books, and photography.  But most of all... for the SACRIFICES they've made and for the LOVE they possess!

When I first heard 'SKIN' in REAL time (hehe), I had goose bumps all over and I couldn't control the tears that were flowing down my face.

I don't know about you, but it sure sounds like the perfect KEY, between teardrops and raindrops, to me?!  ;)

It IS the most BEAUTIFUL sound of healing SCARS... on the world's HEART and mine!

What do you hear?

Sixx:A.M. ~ Skin ~ Written by James Michael and Blair Daly


Nikki, James, and DJ... I'm so proud of ALL of you!  I LOVE YOU!


Bongo said...

I feel like I am his picture....scarred...As always...XOXOXOXO

photos by jan said...

Wonderful,post and photos.

Kirsty Williams said...

The pictures do say a lot. Your words are wonderful and show your heart, very true. The song is beautiful and it did give me chills. I've never heard of this band but I will get this cd. Thanks

The Poet said...

I'm visiting from the group We The Bloggers.

I like the name of your blog. :-)
This is an insightful & thought-provoking post.
Haunting music & Nikki's photos are awesome!

Thanks for sharing.

My latest post:
The Sweet Voice Of Love

Anonymous said...

Intriguing and powerful words. I'm glad you made the choice to believe. The song is theatrical and the photo's are very moving. Great post.


Farfalla Dreams ~ Lisa Marie Farfalla said...

@Bongo Remember we carry the scars... but that's NOT who we are!!! You are BEAUTIFUL! Thanks for the comment! xo

@Jan Thank you for your comment and for what you said about my writing on "Guard Your Heart." I really appreciate the encouragement!

@Kirsty Williams Thank you for the SWEET comment. You will LOVE the CD, it's BEAUTIFUL!!!

@Deb Thank you for the encouragement. I truly appreciate it. Glad you liked it. ;)

@Andy Thank you for visiting and commenting. YES, Nikki's photo's are AMAZING! ;)

Melissa Tandoc said...

You are gifted, that's how I see you. From the moment I read your blog til now, you never fail to fill me with awe. Most of what you write have deeper meanings that could appeal mostly to your most intimate friends but despite that I see how your dreams are unravelled...and are drawn to the Lord. You combine music and poetry with mysticism.

Expose those scars...

The images you just shared by Nikki is quite dark... they make me scared a bit...But then, I do not know who they are and what they've been through...

You continue with your journey... with your hands always raised in praise of the Lord :)

Martha Jane Orlando said...

Powerful images and words and a powerful gift in dreams . . .
This post moved me greatly!
Blessings to you!

Farfalla Dreams ~ Lisa Marie Farfalla said...

@Melissa Thank you for the SWEET compliment on my writing!!! WOW!!! I truly appreciate it, so very much! Yes, I will always LIFT my HANDS and VOICE to the KING of KINGS!!! Thank you again!

@Martha J. M. Orlando Thank you for the BEAUTIFUL compliment and for reading my blog. I appreciate it very much! Glad you were moved by it. Blessings to you, as well.

@Janu Awe, thank you so much!!!

Unknown said...

Now knowing some of Nikki's story and having reread this... and knowing you for who you are to the extent that I do, this is a shaking thing to read. Exquisite thoughts, music, photography, Lisa Marie (and Nikki and band!). "You are NOT your SKIN."

I am thinking of writing a post based on the song now, as you have inspired me... all of you have... to do so, so stay tuned!

Somewhere between the KEY of teardrops and raindrops is the KEY of ANGEL WINGS... and I believe Sixx: AM were brave to download it into their hearts and souls for the world to hear, that their SCARS be be healed from WITHIN by the King of Glory who heals every aching heart, Jesus. What HE went through was to show His love, and what Nikki and Sixx: AM went through to get this song was a sacrifice as well... one that will touch many for years to come.

Farfalla Dreams ~ Lisa Marie Farfalla said...

@Harmony Courtney AMEN! WOW... This made me cry! I totally AGREE!!! I'm glad you were inspired! Thank you so much for this BEAUTIFUL comment and compliment!