Be Mine

"you'll always be mine"...x

I was having a conversation with x a while ago and he was frustrated with people asking questions and trying to get information about him. He said...

famous or not, why does that give anyone the right to stick their nose into my personal business, to pull out skeletons in my closet or to rip open old wounds? are my fans entitled to know everything? what gives them the right to invade my past, present and future? where do I draw the line between a fan and a stalker? it's never enough for them. do they realize the more digging they do, the less access they will have to me and anyone that is close to me?

His tone went from anger to almost remorseful...

"do you realize how many women think i'm their prince charming and i'm gonna ride up on a horse someday and rescue them?"

He wasn't saying it in a prideful or arrogant way, he was just making a point but I was taken aback by his question. I felt as if he felt responsible in some way or perhaps a little guilty for the way these women felt.

In my mind I was thinking, "Yes of course I know how many women are after him. He's famous, so of course, there's probably millions?"

Once he was done I said softly. "I know it might be scary for you but maybe they just want to know you more so they feel closer to you."

Irritatedly he said, "are you high?... this isn't fantasyland."

"Fantasy and reality often overlap." ~Walt Disney

A couple of years ago my son signed up for an online dating site and I was upset about it. I didn't understand why he would need to be on a dating site and I feared for his safety. He would tell me,"this is the world we live in mom, everyone meets online now." Thankfully after a few months and a few bad experiences with the online dating, he cancelled his account.

I'm not saying there's anything bad about dating sites or being on one. I know several people who have met their significant other online and they have wonderful relationships. However, I do believe we've lost the innocence and excitement of getting to know someone by spending quality time together and building a relationship, as you go. Allowing the person to reveal who they are in their timing, when they feel comfortable sharing it. Instead people want instant access to knowing everything about a person and who they are, before they will even consider going on a date.

This is the world we live in.

"and all these things shall be added unto you." ~Jesus

This past Valentine's Day I started thinking about my conversation with x.

One thing that most of us women have in common is we will hold onto the Fairytale ending. We will forever believe that Prince Charming will ride up on his white horse someday, rescue us, bring us to the Palace and we will live happily ever after.

But life doesn't always work out that way. The good girl doesn't always get the Prince in the end. The nice one doesn't always end up in the Palace. Sometimes, it's the wicked ones that end up with the Prince. Sometimes it's the evil one that makes it into the Palace. Often times it's not love that she's after... but money rules her heart. Or perhaps you did end up with the Prince but found out that he was just a frog?

So, what is it about this Fairytale that we were told when we were young that keeps us believing? That keeps us hoping? The fairytale that we will never give up on?

I believe it's because we were created to KNOW our Creator. We are forever searching to fill this void inside of us. In fact the Bible says that without faith it is impossible to please God.

Something to ponder?!

King David said, "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you ALL the desires of your heart."

So what does that mean exactly? I believe it means if we take delight in God then we will find peace and fulfillment in Him. He knows our deepest desires and He will give us what we are longing for and need. Many people delight in their status, wealth and material possessions, hence they are always wanting more. They are never satisfied with what they have therefore they lack happiness.

"A merry heart does good like medicine." ~King Solomon

A few days ago we spent some quality time together. One thing I love is being able to go to my brother's restaurant and have the whole place to ourselves. We can go and enjoy a great meal and communicate, without worrying about people interrupting us. And he doesn't have to disguise himself. While we were discussing something one of my favorite verses in the Bible written by King David popped in my head and I just blurted it out...

"My heart is filled with a noble theme as I recite my verses to the king."

"you always know how to pierce my heart," he said.

"Not me but the Spirit inside of me," I said.

"give me one of yours, just off the top of your head."

you are the greatest fairytale of all

the frog

the prince

the king

and everything in between

you are desired amongst the fairest of them all

wishing they were your queen

We both burst out laughing.

Since I don't have you - Guns N' Roses

"i don't have plans and schemes

and i don't have hopes and dreams

i, i, i don't have anything

since i don't have you."